Living Life on Purpose

The last few months have been both the brightest and darkest of times for me. They have been both the most fulfilling and the most disorientating. It has been the most scared I have been and the bravest, all at the same time. They have been the most liberating and yet the most restricting. They have been the most empowering and disempowering at the same time!

I see this as progress because in times past, life was either one or the other, but never both on at the same time. Suddenly, it seems that I am able to hold both perspectives simultaneously in balance. In the darkness, I see the light. In a restricted place, I feel the thrilling liberty of the moment. In the scariest moment, I feel the bravery emerging in response. In the times of feeling utterly helpless and at the mercy of chance and events, I feel the sense of being in control, safe and certain in face of uncertainty. It is paradoxical and perhaps what non-duality is about. This ‘place’ that I find myself, seems to be God’s address and precisely the meeting point with destiny; with the Divine.

Whilst I still don’t have all the answers (I have more questions than answers), and still making it up as I go, in a strange way, it is the most alive and in control of my purpose and destiny that I’ve ever felt. God is good. Life, with all its challenges, worries, and ups and downs, is good.

Perhaps I have found that sweet spot, the place where God dwells. The place where you hear God whisper “I am enough. My grace is sufficient for you. There may be stomach churning twists and turns on your path, but you will be fine. I got you’’.

In the words of the Psalmist – Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.