Have you ever placed an order with Amazon (or some other online service) that arrives in separate packages on different days? Sometimes, not all the items in your order are ready, and so they are despatched as they become available.

Similarly, in my journey, I find that sometimes the knowledge and insight of what I need to do, arrives well in advance of the courage to actually do it.

Sometimes mustering the courage to live out our convictions, is a process that evolves over time.
For a season (or longer), your life may feel like a contradiction.
Those inclined to judge a book by its cover, may even write you off!

Perhaps you can relate.

The writer in Romans 7:19 describes it as “I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway.”

I have come to realise that this is not something to beat myself up about.

It is part of the process.

Do not give in to self criticism and condemnation. But instead, with compassion cut yourself some slack.

Trust the process.

All the resources of heaven are behind you in the quest to live your Truth and Higher Self.
Like a parent raises a child with grace, patience and loving kindness, so does God with us.

Hence, in those areas of life where insight is present but courage lacking, stay with that knowledge and insight.

Embrace your conviction of what needs to be done, even if it is not yet your lived experience.
Never give up on yourself.
Regard your convictions, as gifts (divine investments within you) waiting to be unwrapped in due season.

For a while (a seemingly long while), fear may hold you back, your own frailty may cause you to falter again and again.
But ultimately, that which is invested within you; within your God nature, is greater than that which is in the world.
The Good that you know to do will ultimately translate into divine acts of love and power.
Trust God. Trust the process.

Now we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this surpassingly great power is from God and not from us.

2 Corinthians 4:7