Much effort and energy has been spent, trying to reform the ego.
Much time has been spent, waiting on the ego to ‘get it’
I wanted ego to see and align with what I know to be true,
I wanted ego to align with what I know to be real.
I had to quit flogging a dead horse.
I had to step back from my Mission Impossible.
The ego cannot be reformed!
The ego cannot understand!
It can only be understood… and then … denied.
You shall know the truth,
and the truth you know, will set you free.
For so long, I believed the ego’s lies as mine
I adopted the ego’s fears as mine
I traded my faith for its doubts
I traded my joy for its pain and sorrow
I accepted its judgements
and acted on its whims.
But now, the truth is starting to dawn upon my consciousness.
To understand the ego, is to not identify with it.
To truly understand the ego,
is to know and observe the emotions and feelings,
that it triggers in my body mind, without being pulled into the drama.
My ego is here to stay.
I expect it,
I understand it,
I allow it,
I even accept it.
But I don’t identify with it.
I no longer feel obliged to identify with the ego and its drama.
I now have the choice to not draw my identity or self-worth from the ego’s stories.
For the life which I now live, I live by the faith of the son of God.